Crawling slowly to my "afterlife"
Thursday, June 30, 2005

"Afterlife" a term i often used to describe the period of thrills, excitements and kicks after undergoing 1-2 weeks of torturing under the spell of excessive stressors or situations..

For me, for now, i am simplistically, genuinely very happy, as i've finally started to get the feelings of enjoying my "afterlife"(screw d exams!!)

Yesterday, afternoon 3.35pm-ish, was the date and time that i decided to record down, as it would supposedly act as a declaration for my temporary freedom (from studies), and i was suppose to get really excited and went like this,



But instead of that, i was acting abnormally (unlike some of those happy happy jumpy type) and i looks like this the whole day,



The combination of blur, spaced out, mentally numbed and stoned, no other pics other than this could illustrate my emotion as accurate at that moment.

I was just so blank.. at that moment, i finished all my exams, no more worries bout studies for 1 month, and i will have all the free time to do this, this, that, that, so i am suppose to get excited!! damnit!! but i just couldnt find the feeling at that moment..

Anyway, i m goin to melbourne tonight, and wont be back in awhile, that means i wont be having any chances other than yesterday night to hang out with my 'aunty'-eunice, before she cut off her strings with UniSA and fly back to Malaysia. Therefore, i went out with her, and a bunch of others.

The initial plan was, to find a pub/bar that sells cheap drinks, get a quick fix, and head to k-box (karaoke). We reached the city at bout.. 9.45pm, and started to walk around and hunting for bars...

Guess what? we went to 6 destinated bars in 2 hrs time!! that's really a record..
The only thing to concern about is that, we pub crawls without the alcohol and getting in... the reason being, WEDNESDAY NIGHT is JINXXXED!!!!

5of them closed, 1 of em (Carg0) was havin some all white theme thinggy.. so we had to bunk and settle in Austral, some no-name bar (i meant.. not popular ler, poetic license mer), thank god we didnt end up buying booze in some convenient stores or pokies... that will be really really pathetic.. Targetted 6 bars and all 6 failed.. what a pub crawls

The drinking process was normal, though i regret for didnt bring my camera along with me... Eunice was high.. pretty soon.. (abit too fake i guess, like instant coffee mix like that..)
I took some shots (Jim beanx1, JDx2 and some scotchx1), shared half a jug of cooper's with Albert (cool ass hongkee dude), 1 submarine (scotch with cooper's)

I was doin alright even then, perhaps i m really a depressant type in alcohol.. so just before we leave that place, me n albert decided to take one last shot, and we asked the bartender for some recommendations.. and she gave us this "mee-eh-chem-bulb" (it pronounced like that..). It's a mixture of a mugfull of "redbull"-famous energy drink, and a shot of some kinda waterchestnut rum.. the method is of coz dump it in, and gulp it down...

I wouldnt say that it is strong, strong... but it hits ur brain very very fast.. probably becoz of the usage of redbull as the medium, as energy drinks are designed to release the effect quick.. that's my rationale of looking at it ler..

i took another shots when i brought justin (not botak) and daniel (not the other botak as well) back in... at that point, after consuming the second shots of that.. "bulb" thinggy.. i would said, the night is just about to start.. hahaha

Too bad my cam(sorry teddy, left you at home) wasnt with me.. anyway, i m trying my best to search for the waterchestnut rum.. squary bottle, green logo, if anyone notices it please please take down the name and inform me!!

Anyway, the night was.. alright.. tho didnt spend much time in k-box.. however it was.. fun.. reasonably.. reached home at bout.. 4+? 4.20-ish like that.. i guess..

So, this would be my first post after my exams and last post before i leave to melbourne.. tonight!! So then, hav fun and go play play play!!

p.s- pub crawling isnt that fun.. unless u r drivin.. my legs are aching..

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What a greenie day~
Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Green, an enhanced non-primary color produced by the mixing of both blue and yellow isnt always my favorite color. That, i can assured you, I dont have anything particular with greenie stuffs, meaning i dont really hate or dislike the color green nor cling over it or "fetishize" over anything with green (just like the pink fetish fever that runnin across the world, possessing on mainly 14-24 yrs old females). Yeap, regardless the fact that green is always just.. ordinary and passer-by to me, i bought a green sunglasses yesterday.. Yeap.. GREEN



For those who possessed a pair of eagle eyes, yeap, you could tell that this is a Killerloop's Sunglasses. Usually, it would cost.. up to 150-200Aud, however, fortunately due to the fact that one of my friends wanted to buy a "decent" sunglasses, we entered this sunglasses shop, and just out of curiosity i asked abou the price of this pair of goblin-look sunglasses. Guess what? unexpectedly, the saleslady shocked me with an answer of.. "40aud" wow..

Honestly, that's pretty cheap.. and i kinda like the look of it, and with still a bit of spare cash in hand.. i bought it. Turned out that the friend that suppose to get a sunglasses didnt get anything in return, becoz the rest just arent "decent" enough.

I was abit excited bout the retail of the Killerloop Survivor series "green-monster"... but when i bought it.. it's already 4-5pm in the afternoon.. it would be weird if i still wanna put on the sunglasses.. moreover.. it was quite a gloomy and rainy day yesterday..

However, i finally got the chance to try it out today, as i woke up at bout 1.30pm, and on my way to a pharmacy nearby to get some stuffs.. i tried it out.. and.. it was cool



Oh, what a greenie day~! Ppl from GREENDAY, you arent that green without this!!! :p

I used the greeny shade as a filter, and this is what i got.. pretty nice heh? (when i took the pic, i didnt adjust the light exposure, becoz i wanted to save battery and i didnt on the LCD viewscreen.. so, in return, i photoshopped it to add abit of light on the top right, and exaggerate on the colorization more). Yeap, so this would act as a demonstration on how it would be like after puttin on that green shade on.. Yeah, pretty funky heh?
It's like.. everything is just.. so GREEN, and natural..

Not to exaggerate.. but yeah i think i started to like the color.. Green.. hmm.. anway.. due to my exam pressures and all.. this shall be one of my last posts before my exams over..

So, i shall reward all the readers with this colorful creation of mine..

F-tuned desktop background #1



Till then, have fun and enjoy your life! Dont limit yourself with just one color or so.. live a colorful life!!

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A kind of Preparation
Monday, June 13, 2005

Exams coming soon, and it's pretty much easy for me to forsee that in the future 2-3 weeks time i wont be having the time to clean up and keep my room tidy. Therefore, after waking up at 3pm, I forced myself to do so.

Spent bout 1 hour or so, to clean up my room, done my laundry, vacuum the carpet, wipe the furnitures.. etc..

And now, allowed me to present to you, a new fresh and white Freddy's Room!


the first time in 3 months i decided to make my bed, and from this angle, it does look like a cheap motel or something huh?

I had to take down my Chiaki Kuriyama's KillBill vol.1 poster when i clean up my bed, as i realized that it's full of dust and that might be the reason why my nose kept running and wont stop from breathing dusts in. (As the poster is just right above me pillow)


ignore the towel.. other than that everything seems so fine and clean

I'm glad that i actually did clean up my room, as you know i can be a bit lazy.. and sometimes.. i could just overdo it, so i m really glad that i did. It's now easier to breath in and sleep inside my room...



House's backyard, took it at bout 5pm

I actually thought of cleaning up the backyard as well, as in.. at least clear up the fallen leaves or what.. but after say.. 3-4 sweeps i suddenly felt bit lethargic and therefore i held back right then and managed to just sweep it back to one side... At least, i sweep them back nearer to their mother ok (the tree)... :P

Anyway, today's pretty ordinary, tho something funny happened yesterday but i dun think i wana post it up today, maybe tomoro or so, and i guess i wont be posting up as frequent as i mentioned before, exams are coming soon, I AM suppose to study on how to score my exams but not to blog on how i fail my exams..

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A Plan
Saturday, June 11, 2005

Recently i've been babbling about Teddy here, Teddy there for too much, and in the actual fact teddy is surviving with just a 16mb memory card.. That's like Vin Diesel feeding on 2 bowls of grade C plain porridge for a day. That's bad, indeed bad, i dont wana be accused as abusive or torturing my Teddy, however, guess i wont be getting any larger memory card until beginning of july. Sorry teddy...

Anyway, tho he's still on his way of starvation, i m goin to lay down a plan for me, myself, and teddy during our holiday. Once, i've gotten my new memory card, i wanna start some shooting, and goin to pile up a short movie clip (hopefully, beyond my usual standard). It's kinda hard, when you need to constant unload the memory to your laptop or other devices, and keep filming short duration shots. However, i've done something similar before, by clipping 14-15 mini shots that contains 3-5 secs each, with reasonable editing, you could still work it out somehow.

So, the basic idea of the plan has been set, which is to make good use of teddy's ability and compose a short film. Now, the problem here is, what's the theme? topic? title? style? genre? and how bout the Casts? Plot? Location? Money?

yeap.. it's indeed a very troublesome hobby, but i m determined and motivated! I've done something on psychological disorder (Pyromania, fanatic who obssessed with set things up on fire), a tale bout a social loafer, plenty small clips for orientations/promos/activities, Kosovo: the cursed sacred land, and so on. I need more inspiration on this, of coz.. must b low budget, easy to film while could obtain great effects at the sametime, and does not involves too many casts

erm.. tough yerr...


Touch me, and i will burn down your house!!

Filmed that say.. 2 years ago, sorry that i only kept a brutally compressed version, so it's very blurry..


Another shot of "Pyromania", featuring Suresh and myself

Pudu jail? Sungai Buloh's? or the Pahang one's? Nope, it was actually my frens' house's living room.. Nice setting and lighting control huh? hahaha, short of casts.. so gotta act it out myself,
2 propz should go to Suresh's acting, indeed a very scary and brutal policemen.. tho we only managed to get the old police uniform.. :P

Yea, so, to round it up.. short clip firming is one of my hobbies, and by involving yourself in the picture, it would be so much fun.. Trust me..
Yeap.. teddy is suppose to be a camera not a video cam.. but oh well.. can wan ler..

So, pour in your idea, amuse me, feed me!!

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Welcome abroad, Teddy!
Thursday, June 09, 2005

"Welcome, Teddy!" Yes! the day has finally arrived.. Our hero has finally reached his destination, his first step to create wonderful images and keep memories in a miraculous manner!

This afternoon, bout 4pm i finally got a receipt sayin that i could pick up my "teddy" at the local post office which located at about 5 mins walk away. Without any hesitation, i rushed and collected it straight fresh from the postoffice. I then spent about 2 hrs reading the manual and discovering many many functions and superpowers that Teddy would offer to me only if i ask and learn from him respectively. The stock was clean, safe and perfect, and i m satisfied with it other than the slight delay of delivering which invoked a lil bit of my anxiety and anger.

Knowing me, a young 19 years old (still!) tad that owns a passionate heart towards new and intriging objects even a 6 years old small kid wouldnt wana compete with me in that hyperactiveness sense, i quickly untied the parcel, and follow the instructions straight to hav a quick detailed look at Teddy. He's indeed handsome and crafted a witty look on its smart design


i had to use my webcam to take this shot, sorry for the blurry image of "Teddy"

Without further hesitation, i read through 60% of the manual, picking on mostly technical features and abilities that i could derived from Teddy. Of course, you wouldnt know whether a Durian is indeed a D24 breed or just a normal thailand hybrid just by looking or sniffing at it, the most simple and direct method is to test it out... yep, break it into parts and chew out the flesh of it, taste it from bits to bits. And that's exactly what i did to Teddy.

As inspired by one of my cousins, Davors (a pro-like when comes to lomo attempt and camera handling), I took out some of my own toys and put it on together with teddy to create some "Cool-looking-thought-provoking" pics.

Before the actual shootings, i would like to introduce to you my "toys" that being involved in this attempt. Firstly, "Waki" a fine made steel wakizashi (a form of katana, slightly shorter than usual length)


Disclaimer: this is indeed real, and it's for self-defense and decorative purposes. Please dont try anything more at home

Secondly, an official reservoir dogs' poster, featuring Mr.White, Mr.Orange, Mr.Blonde, and Mr.Brown in that show.

Go watch the show, it's indeed a splendid mafia style show.. !!

So, a wakizashi and a reservoir dogs' poster.. a rather weird combination huh? I would think that it's totally ridiculous and senseless without the existence of Teddy in my possession. However, since teddy is here, he said, "no problem, i could come up with something even with that weird combination". I trusted him entirely, therefore i took a few tries.. and here's the result of Teddy's true power!


"A lone samurai stand tall with his katana in front of a squad of mafias, attempting to save the world from injustice!"

Too bad i had to resize the pic in order to fit in nicely in this blog.. if you look at it at the 2000 x 1500 pixels resolution, you could clearly see every single features of the mafias and a nice glaring flare effect due to over light exposure. Yeap, that's the key, exposing it to the pendaflour light on top of me, and readjust the shuttle speed, with a manual aperture and speed approach should be able to obtain this kind of images fairly easily (at the sametime, angling to achieve perfect dimension is also fairly essential in order to get the reflection). However, i wasnt quite satisfied with just that, and i decided to work out teddy a little bit more, so i tried something else more on light exposure and color burning.

Here's my second try,


"The samurai drew out his katana, and it was so glaring, it blinds the enemies!!"

In this attempt, i try a closer up close shot (without micromanage, as i want to over burn the image), and i on my flash (fill flash), and locked angle on hilt part where i wanted it to glare.. slow filter flash it (u normally do this for red eyes reduction), and at the sametime drag the light exposure, combined with appropriate aperture and shuttle speed. Here you go, a glaring light reflecting wonder samurai sword (if you look carefully, you should be able to see the center splash glares effect.

Haha, after messing up with my "toys" i am satisfied for today! phew, please feel free to comment on my attempts and if you hav any future suggestions, please, more than welcome to spill it out~!

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Meanwhile durin the wait...
Wednesday, June 08, 2005

This post will be a continuation of my previous entry on "teddy". Don't be suprised or so, yes, he's not here yet.. as expected.. grrr.. damn those postmens.. cant you just skip your footy tv session for a weekend and send my baby to me? Apparently they mentioned in the post that, it will be delivered within 7 working days... Arghh!!

Anyway, enough of ramblings, i m not goin to complain or curse more on this post. Instead, i m goin to promote my this future buddy a lil bit more and to clarify up a few matters. After posting up my previous entry, i received a few comments on my choice of camera, and right here, i m not tryin to offend anyone or even defend myself.. As when i read back my own post.. i realized that.. i didnt include much technical explaniation on my selection, so that's crucial.. to the point that i dont want anyone to hav any bad impression on KonicaMinolta's bad pricing becoz of my lack of clarification. (actually their RRP is indeed abit steep.. but oh well.. i somehow gotten it cheap.. so who cares?)

Comments such as, 1)"with the same amount of money you could get a smaller camera with higher megapixels and in a more fashionable sense of casing." 2) "Don't you think it's abit too big? As currently trend in technology is to squeeze everything into as tiny as possible" (except for TV). 3) "i heard that KonicaMinolta's camera are very sensitive and it's not easy to repair once it;s broken down." 4) "It's a camera that uses alkaline batteries still, and as compared to lithium batteries that you could recharge straight away, dont you think that's a downside to its wonderful specification?"

Honestly, i m glad that i received such comments (both in public and privately). I really do, because it showed me your concerns about me being conned or deceived by the flashy cover-ups and pakacging that made up by KonicaMinolta and e-bay. Nonetheless... by knowing the fact that i could be abit anal retentive and skeptical when comes to materials that i aint so familiar with yet passionnate for.. i actually calculated all the pros and cons and i came up with the final conclusion that.. yes, Teddy is worthwhile buying for that price.. definitely..

So, now, allow me to ellaborate and discuss on the raised comments on my "teddy". In notion to the first comment, Dimage Z3 (Teddy's official name) might not be as 'handy', when you talkin about its physical appearance that will match or fit directly to just a single palm size, but, with its excellent functions, the size of a real crafty wizard could be neglected. It is true that with the same amount of money you could afford a camera with 5.0megapixels or even more, however with a total zoom of 48x that teddy could offer, you neednt a topclass soya sauce in order to bring up the delicious taste of a high grade salmon. What i am tryin to say is, it's more than enough for teddy just to have a well that could produce high minerals water, so the initial capacity in the well wouldnt be a big matter to its quality. Additionally, with the function of switching it to manual focus and manual light exposure.. you could achieve images that exceed a quality of 4.0mps by sight.

For the second comment.. i would like to ellaborate abit more though i touched on abit on the above statements. It is relatively true that everything technological except for some special cases such as TV, Trucks, and rockets (where the bigger the better), every other thing seems to strive their way to reach the goal of becoming the "tiniest", "slimiest", "smallest", etc... I wonder why.. when most females work on a totally opposite direction regarding a specific organs of theirs...
Honestly.. i dont really see the point of some of the objects to be smaller.. k, say camera and some mobile phones.. dont you think it's bit hard to press and sms when you are holding a tiny ass phone that could possibly stuff into your backside tunnel if you happen to keep some drugs inside your handphone case, and for camera, when it's so small.. it affects your finger ability to co-ordinate with the whole snapping progress.. and since it is small.. a lil shake meant alot to the result of the picture.. furthermore with the sharp ass 5.0mps + resolution.. that's y all your digital photos need to be photoshopped before u post up ler..

Ok, now for the 3rd comment, yes it is indeed sensitive, in the sense of the lens (Minolta produces worldclass quality lenses and focus tubes). Since teddy came with a fine-tuned anti-shaked and pre-prediction balancer it will be even more sensitive yet stable in snapping quick shots. Yes, i do agree that Minolta's parts are abit harder to reach than the rest.. like nikon, kodak, sony, etc.. and it might be abit prone to injury according to rumors.. however, after a certain amount of research i seek on, no, it isnt that bad for my teddy.. the rest of the fancy line cameras might be.. but not teddy

Lastly, i think this comment is worthwhile for 2 propz.. yes i totally agree with that mostly. It is true that with a lithium base battery you could save more and it might.. last longer (if your camera supports only 2 AA or 4 AAA batteries). However, with the design of 4 AA batteries, it shud b quite durable provided that you need to cough up abit initially for 4 rechargeable AA batteries ler.. that.. i cannot do anything more for it lor..

With those.. i conclude my defending statement for the accused offendant.. Mr.Teddy Dimage Z3 Tan. For the outcome of the trial, we shall proceed to after the break for further solocication and waiting for the sentencing.

Till then.. buhbye...!!

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Wait... keep waiting...
Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Time passes by vigorously just like the flow of the red sea,
Every second seems so consumptious and flatterning,
Every minute my pulse stuttering upon anxiously,
Every hour i check my wrecked old clock

Oh boy, i wish i could just be like Moses
Setting the sea aside, cross the path straight
Forget bout the wait on the other side
On the other side, of the damn CAMERA I ORDERED!!!

I am annoyed.. anxious.. and again worried.. bout the camera i bought over via ebay last tuesday night.. The company sent me an email and informed me that.. the camera has been shipped on Wednesday.. and should be arrived by monday.. (from Melb to Adelaide only.. not so far away) Therefore.. i've been waiting... since then.. i m bit worried.. that something happen to my future partner that will screen down everything around me that's worthy for him(i decided that it should be a he) to take a look and memorize the incident down.

Therefore.. i m really scared.. what if something happen to this future partner of mine?
Like being kidnapped by somebody? rob? or even rape??!! NOOOOOOOO
Anyway.. before i go any further.. i shall describe my partner here abit..
his formal name shud b Dimage z3, surname Minolta, middlename konica
Click the link below to have a good look of it
dimage-z3/

yea.. i know.. it looks pretty expensive.. and indeed it is expensive.. in a way.. however.. i managed to get it off from an auction in ebay and i got it cheap..
according to some crappy reviews.. the RRP should be around 699-7++ AUD .. that's crazy.. but i got it for 369AUD plus postage.. that's a pretty good bargain.. i've been watching the auction acts goin on for awhile.. but lucky me, this company seems to stock up alot of that model.. and they couldnt sell it off with the normal path.. so they came up with the auction idea.. this is the 4th one i attempted.. and it came out cheap (tho.. i had to sacrifice all my extra pocket money and money that i've earned from somewhere.. somehow.. shhhh.... meet me behind the alley, tonight, 3am, sharp!!.. shhhh)

When u gotten something cheap and valuable and not suppose to be in any logical way.. u tends to think.. hmm.. am i really lucky? or are there any conspiracies behind all these?
I had a conversation with one of my frens that pretty 'pro' or rather.. experienced in ebay trading.. he told me that.. in countries like UK,US, and AUS, u often managed to get cheaper stocks via ebay.. becoz certain medium scale trading company have gotten their stocks in some other countries that suck less taxes on the goods or country where the manufacturer located.. so from that point, they often managed to bring up a better price (excluding the postage and insurance). So after knowing that, what left is the price of the postage services.. However.. even after my own calculation, the price IS still relatively way cheaper than the RRP over here.. therefore i decided to get it

Now, you might wana ask me.. these questions.. such as
1) Is photography a hobby of yours?
2) Are you planning to go pro or something?
3) Are you goin to spend all your times in shooting photos? since u dumped in so much money in it?
4) Do you think it is worthy enough for that amount of cash?

grr.. firstly, i deny that photography is a hobby of mine, it is not.. clearly not, to me.. shooting photo is just an artistic way of screening down and keeping down memories with concrete outcomes.. therefore.. it;s more than just a hobby, it is part of life, and i never own a camera before.. as in.. my own camera.. no..that's y i m craving for one.. and i m getting one!

second, you neednt to be a pro or a semi-pro to own a camera like that, it is just like.. u no need to be a japanese to eat japanese food.. (wait.. bad attempt).. er, how bout this, you no need to be a lawyer to be familiar with law and it's not neccesary for you to be filthy rich in order to own a sport car. The point i want to make here is.. no matter whether u are up to the par of the object you just obtain or what.. as long as u willing to be, or surely to be matching it in the future.. it's alright. People might say that it's still early for you to use this, but if i m comfortable with the spent, the experience, the usage, and the efforts i m willing to put in, why are you making a fuss? when i am suppose to be the person who;'s goin to use it, not u?! (and trust me.. i discussed with my other alter egos several times before i made that decision..so.. it's clearly a democratic victory)

i think i accidenntally inclueded and answered q4 up there..so i shall focused on the third question. Ok, allow me to say this in order to answer that question, anyone can eat up 10 cows, but just not in one day. I m saying here that, i m willing to entrust my partner a 15 years contract (at least) of pairing up with me to screen beautiful stuffs that are worthy for (such as butterflies, flowers, bees, and giraffes, etc), and 369aud for 15 years of good memories retrival cues.. that;s not at all a bad deal to me.

Anyway, let's pray with me that, teddy will be safe from harm and come to me in one perfect piece ASAP, as i m really getting up my head with the wait!

p.s- i decided to rename him, coz i dun wanna call him z3 or dimage, one sounded like some motorcycle, while the other sounds just like... an ordinary camera.. teddy is much unique and a nicer sounding for a partner.

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Miraculous form of Metamorphosis
Friday, June 03, 2005

Meta-mor-pho-sis.. what the heck is that? In layman's term, change of physical form, a striking alteration in appearance, for example, a marked and more or less abrupt developmental change in the form or structure of a butterfly (see, i promised you that i will write something about butterflies) occurring subsequent to birth or hatching.

I am sure most of you know that butterfly isnt exactly a butterfly(as in the appearance) when the egg first hatches (if u duno this i shall refresh ur memory).

According to the lovely illustration above, after the 'breaking of the egg', the larva need to go through 5 stages before it officially form its cocoon and became a butterfly (during the 2nd stage onwards u could called it a caterpillar). So, the term to address this entire progress is called Metamorphosis.

I've a bit of fetish on butterflies, therefore i did put in some effort to research on it. Sadly, i discovered that butterflies are too stupid to recognize human, therefore it's not suitable to make it a pet of yours (as it would probably fly away in anytime). I was pretty sad, when i discovered that fact... and i make a lil promise to myself, one day if a butterfly would actually follow my command and cling on to me wherever and whenever, i will officially adopt it as my pet. (but that will never happen.. logically)

One day, during an unexpected incident, where i was slicing a big bundle of cheese, i accidentally sliced my own finger, and a piece of skin detached from my flesh, left a little line of hope that cling on to my finger (it was tragic, so stop laughin now!)


this is the result of that incident, the blood is already been stopped while i took this picture.

As you can see from the picture, it was kinda deep, however my skin are strong and independent enough to cling on back to the flesh without falling off. After such an incident, i know that i should rest and dont hurt my finger more for another 1-2 weeks. However, knowing me as a hyperactive and a trustworthy individual that never wanted to break a promise... I went to a club at the sameday (2 hrs after the cut... :P) Of course, i did make sure that i put on a secure dressing on it and make sure nothing else would happen. Nonetheless, during the clubbing session... I "accidentally" drank a mug or two of alcohols... knowing the fact that alcohol helps to increase bloodflow.. my wound started to turn into a waterfall.. no wait.. a bloody fountain..

I literally squirt bloods around the club.. (luckily it was too dark, and the bouncers are too tall to notice the short little me, squirting around) I borrowed a hankerchief from Daniel, as it is obvious that the little handy plus i addressed to the wound wasnt sufficient for the 'fountain'. I ran to the toilet, washing my wounds and tie the hankerchif tight to my finger. While i was doing that, 1-2 australian locals stood beside the sink i was using, and they all staring at me with a horrifying look... And one of them actually asked,

"Did you just punch somebody?"

Instinctively i answered," Yeah, one of the bouncers"

They then just stood there with a pause (it was funny to look at their expression, especially the one that stopped from washing his hands)

Of course, being a nice person, i didn't want to traumatize them and affect their general judgment on asians.. as if all of us are like Jet Li or Jackie Chan, one fella can fight the whole nation.. So i quickly end the conversation with this,
"Er, actually, it was a joke"

Yet, even so, i dont think they get it, judging from the fact that both of them quickly ran out without drying their hands..

Ok, so after that, i continue my night session in the club.. and again.. the stubborn me made a same mistake again.. I helped Justin to finish his drink.. and here you go, Niagara fall.. *squirts

Even the poor little hankerchief couldnt do anything to stop the bloods from squirting out of my body.. So, i came up with this idea.. which is to place my finger, into my mouth, and suck back my own blood... (Sorry, if there's any vampire working as the janitor in the club.. u cant have my bloods) Well, without knowing it, the moment i was sucking my own finger, it provokes the transformation of a miraculous metamorphosis.

Though alcohol could increased the rate of your bloodflow, so it is bad to drink when u have bleeding wounds on you, but it works well as a substance to clear and clean bacteria from wounds if you apply it on the wound, and that's what i did by putting in my finger into my mouth that filled with alcohol substance. (ish, coincident? no, i called it the first step to the occurrence of a miracle)

Eventually, my finger stopped from bleeding once again, and i decided to go home soon, as i felt bit of exhaustion after a certain amount of bloodlost. After that night.. i took good care of my finger and i rest it pretty nicely for 1 week.. Exactly 1 week, when i opened up the plaster that covered my wound.. instead of seeing my healthy finger, I SAW THE MIRACLE!!!!

I SAW A BUTTERFLY!!!


tadaa! I saw a butterfly flappin it wings, waving hello to me!

I stunned for awhile.. and i made a further observation on that 'thing'..

see! really a butterfly, staying calmly on my finger!!

another view of it, it might be small.. but it's still a butterfly!!

Apparently, that butterfly grew out of my wound.. you know.. just like a replacement of a pupa..
Amazing?! Who ever thought that a butterfly could actually be born out of a human flesh??!!

I am the first person who did that!! and it was a miracle!!!

*cough cough.. ok.. enough of all those.. i shall reveal the truth, later some kids passing by this site and misunderstood it and end up failling his science test.. then it wouldnt be a good thing aight? So, now, let's take a better look at that thing..


The true form of the miracle butterfly

Yes... if your eyes are sharp enough.. you should be able to tell this..
It was my dead skin which formed the transformation of the butterfly! Please dont puke or anything.. it wasnt that disgusting when you look at the first and the sec pic weren't they?
hehe.. anyway, this is the truth of the miracle tale.. Cut yourself + bleeding + alcohol + sucking your wound, is not = to breeding a miracle butterfly

If that equation could work.. i migth as well slash myself with cleaver over my body.. pour on alcohol.. and kept sucking it.. hopefully one day i could transform into a butterfly-human hybrid? (i shall call it butter-man.. wait.. that doesnt sounds right.. how bout.. butterfluman?? )

And i shall became this.. a new superhero!! with the special ability of sucki.. i meant flying, squirting bloods, spreading powders and destine to bring hope to mankind!!

All hail the Super-Butter-Fl-uu-man!! I will keep squirting around until i finally safe the day!!

P.s-1.no evil intention towards the kind of butterfly.. so nerds.. i meant members from all the insects society or organization please make use of your sense of humor and take it as a form of entertainment.
2. the deadskin part was real! and i didnt create it on purpose
3. it happened bout.. 3 months ago
4. i know i am bad in photoshop.. so please bare with me
5. and the marks behind the naked me was real.. but not becoz of any ill-form of hobby but a traditional way of massage.. (please.. it's true!)

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FREDbrication vocabulary review #1
Thursday, June 02, 2005

Hewo everyone, my bad that i didnt post up anything even though i m actually very free.. =P
I apologize for that matter, and i shall begin a trend/series of posting which started with the title of "FREDbrication". Before me ranting, i would like to come up with an explanation for the term - FRED-brication (what exactly does this mean? dont try to search under Oxford or Meriam Webster.. trust me u cant find it)

To carry out my dissection on this word, proper format need to be formed for the best effect of understanding..
So, let's check out the meaning of "FRED-brication"

Vocabulary: 1Fredbrication
Pronunciation: ''freid'-bree-ka-sh&n"
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): Fredbricated, Fredbricating
Etymology: Modern Cross-Racial Culture, from Old English Fabrication and the emergence of which with a not-so-common western based name (signal representation)
1 : a fictitious process which involves narrative or statement that directly or indirectly reflect reality with certain amount of sarcasm or criticsm: as a : a wind of rumor/story that spreads the means of reality; vividly
2: a creation of such (1), and by using lies/falsehoods to extract people's mind from plastic reality
(getting confused already? next point i shall make it all clear)
3: A form of persuasion technique, which induce imaginary facts(a.k.a white lies)


Ok, so there you go, that's the meaning of FREDbrication, a term which i thought it would be sufficient to describe this kind of behavior or action or incident. Think hard, ask yourself, how many times you actually did that? When you see a friend of yours (assuming same gender as you), has a very bad sense in dressing (cant get the picture? let me help you, imagine this yellow based t with big PURPLE flower patterns and GREEN petals plus the mixture of pink skirt with white poke-a-dots for female, and for guys - ultra tight shirt grey based with orange color paints, as if kena splashed by coffee or something equivalent to that, and a leather pants), and he/she is goin out with you for a casual walk in the mall... And just so that, you feels like confronting him or her bout his issue... and you tell him/her this, "Eh, Mary/Michael (fictional names only), you look pretty 'awesome' today, but why dont you try a bit of low profile outfit when we are goin out next time? As according to some megazines (here it goes), they said that the current hottest fashion trend is to go 'As' plain and 'As' ordinary as possible when u hanging out in a mall."


now u get what i mean? white lies! white lies!

If he or she still don't get that, you can make use of the person he/she like, e.g."heh, i had a chat with 'whoever'(the person he or she like), he/she said, he/she likes someone with a plain sense of dressing, color coding n all should be "dull" and "ordinary" (yeah, get that right, punk!)"

You might ask me, why not just confront that friend of yours straight away? Let's be sincere to each other, that's what friends are for right?

That might be right, but as a future psychologist standing here, I dont really agree on that. As to tell a white lies in order to achieve something, you must obey/follow at least these conditions:
1) carry it out of good intention (not to cheat, curse, spread rumors, manipulating ppl for u own sake)
2) based on the principle of never hurt anyone's feeling unless it's necessary (when you think that this person is really in manic sense of obsession towards a certain behavior)
3)situation where you think you could handle (like the dressing one or some other minor issues, please don do anything like that when you encounter major issues, such as break-up in relationships, lost of family members, etc)
4)Always weight the consequences before you tell a white lies
5)Always ask yourself are there any other alternatives other than this, that would carry out a better or at least same par of effect to this
6) Do NOT make this a habit of yours (though you are conducting it for other ppl's sake, yet, it's still not a proper way to reflect reality)

Alright, i guess i kinda sum up the meaning for this, and the term FRED-brication shall served as the title for this series of entry (my own word dissection and interpretation and creation of vocabulary for better accuray in description)

P.S- i think my tone and style in this post are rather serious and mimic to my usual style, anyway i guess the clinical side of me is awakening, and please.. i dont wish to be a boring person myself

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