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Unusual Ranting
Sunday, August 21, 2005 Damn. Yes. I am annoyed. ..... Frankly speaking, since the beginning of the new semester (4 weeks ago), the amount of efforts i put in for academic purposes is considered as pitiful. So, this morning, i decited to wake up rather early as compared to usual, i sat in front of my lappie and worked for 4 hours at least, 2 hours on reading and analyzing journals that i've got for my research, half an hour to plan and schedule future assignments, and the rest of the 1 1/2 hours on writing an essay for my biological psychology. To begin with, I AM not a biology freak, and i do NOT like this kinda stuffs, so to write a 1500 words essay on "Do Homosapiens have large brains? Why? if so, are they so large?" is really something that i've squeezed all my eternal energy, souls and efforts to force myself in sharp concentration for that essay. Why do we have large brains? lol... I am in the Psychology field, and inspired to be a psychologist, not a neurosurgeon, biologist, or anthropology researcher!!! I am suppose to figure out why, how, and what will human behave like in any kind of situation, but not to chop off their brains and say, "yea, this one abit yellowish, must be unhealthy... hmm.. suppression" I cant deny that brain structures and the consequences that happened to it would change our behaviors, or even personalities in some sense... But.. the entire course design of Biological Psychology is just too.. Biological.. it's more like.. Intro to Human Biology than what it truly suppose to contain... Damnit, i m not trained to be a psychologist that would saw off your brain, reassemble the neurons and nerves as if i am like an electrical repairman... When i chopped off your brain.. i don't see something insightful like this!!  What an unusual brain activities.. lol Okok, enough ranting bout the course itself.. it's not the main factor that affected my mood.. The thing is, when i decided to save my 1 and 1/2 hours of efforts, somebody in my MSN nudged me, repeatedly (i still dun get it.. how come that fella could nudge for so many times in a row), and due to the unstability of my lappie's virtual memory since i was operating more than 12 windows at the same time (including browsers, winamp, word documents, pdf journals, etc), the entire thing clashed. I didnt panic... becoz.. i know that even tho it clashes, the smart window recovery system would at least save up 75% of my work... I was too confident... It did not... for some strange reasons... instead it recovered a word's format's journal (which i accidentally made some changes in it) I was like.. #@&*&#... what the?! As I had experiences where more than 1 word documents clashes and it recovered all of them.. but not this time, i guess.. it's that time of the month for my window OS... BLOODDDYYYYYY HEELLLLLL!!!!
That means, i need rework on the "Big Brain" essay that gave me a real headache all over again.. Damn! In order to calm myself down, I remembered that i need to collect back my clothes that are hanging outside at the backyard for drying.. just went i am about to get up.. i realized that.. just a moment ago there was a heavy rain outside.. NOOOOOOOooooo!! That's my first laundry done in 2 weeks.. please don't do this to me... In the end, i decided to pull in all the half-wet clothes and hang it around in my room with hangers and all.. turned on the fan, opened up the window, and BLOW.. (i cant wear the same shirt for more than 4-5 days right?) Unlucky me... at that moment, i cant really ooze out anymore efforts for my biology essay.. so, i decided to put it aside for now, and work on my other assignments (the next due date for my assignments is in 2 week's time, so dun worry i m working in advance here) I am really pissed.. at myself, at the weather(non-stop raining), at my boring bio lecturers and the contents, at that somebody that nudges me (i need to find out who the heck was that), and at the australian lecturer's ambiguous style of giving out instruction for assignments (damn, whaddaya mean by "only psychology journals" when your research is mainly based on Philantrophy and Sociology journals?) Phew.. i am drained for now.. cant possibly withstand another blow today.. if something did hit me again.. I will be like a butterfly without wings, cant fly for awhile.. most probably i will fall sick in no time tried so hard, yet i just cant seem to get up on ground, straight away.. i need time man Anyway, i shall stop my ranting here, i shouldnt blame anybody, it might seem that it is.. but it's not so bad after all.. hmm.. one thing is that, i truly hope, pray, and beg that.. my "beloved" Windows Words wont clashed and "forgot" to recover my files again..  God.. i know life wont be smooth and silky, yet, you neednt ruined my plans all in one day Till then, be good.. my OS p.s1- yeap, i love to use animal's pics in order to express myself. It's more illustrative and impactful in a way to me... leaving skool f-r3d at 6:12 PM 2 pokies {WTFPWNKTHXBYE} |
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