15 to 20
Monday, October 17, 2005

After handling in my report for Organizational Psychology on friday, I was in a mood of floating around without my soul in ma body.. just waiting for the time to spend away while my body slowly recover back its potential to function.. Thus, i did completely nothing constructive for the past 2 days, cept for a completion of 2 poems, a slight progress on my on-going fiction, and a succeeded in cooking steam rice with green curry.. too bad i was too excited over my success and ate it before i realized that i should take down a picture or two.. damnit

Back to the entry, the title is rather vague and vivid.. huh.. uno like those cliche movie title "13th going on 30" "50days" "8days" those kinda thing.. hmm.. it's nothing much actually.. it's just a brief reminder for me, myself, and those who care, that.. in 15 days time i am going to turn 20!!
*wink *hint hint

Since ancient time, no matter eastern or western culture, nomads or settlers, warrior tribe or farmer colony, in most culture it seems that the day of your birth in each year is something that worthwhile to celebrate for.. hmm.. i really wonder why.. why is it that this sense of happiness or needs to celebrate is applied universally (almost.. i cant think of any culture that forbid the celebration of birthday) To me, yes, it's something to be proud of since this is the day where the hero of the coming future was born, and it might be neccesary to held a celebration or occasion each year to remind everybody about that.. but at the sametime it's also an official reminder to everyone that.. yes i am getting older.. by 1 yr (officially), and it reminds that, that day was also the day when my mother had to suffer for hours in order to squeeze me out.. it reminds me of things and stuffs i received on that day of every year, it reminds me of everyone who helped me, loved me, hated me, and those who still kept on doing the same over and over again, even when i am no longer a small little kid who needs guidance on every single step i take.. however, i do appreciate it still.. very much.. yeah.. that day of the year.. it's coming

2nd of November, 1985.. the date followed me into my life, the date that represents me in every single documents, the date told by my kindergarten teacher as the most important date that i must remember no matter what, the date that will be carved on my epitaph stone, the date that will see me rise and fall..

I am glad that the youngest son of my family, i am happy that i belong to that family, and i am happy that i am growing well without much accident happened to me.. I am pretty well.. however, the fact that i m turning 20 without much achievement, experience and success in any major sense just doesnt make feel like decent.. I havent represent my home country for anything, i havent do anything like bungee and sky-diving, havent publish a book, havent this, havent that.. havent havent havent.. Damn, there's so manything that i wanna do yet i couldnt cover it in the past 20 yrs.. I am going to say goodbye to my teenage life and accepting the beginning of adulthood, and i hope till then the willpower within me will increased and prolong my urge to fulfill all my dreams and goals..

For now, i have nothing more to ask for, but a decent rest and growth until i am done for in Adelaide, and UniSA.. After this year, i shall further my footstep to around the world..
This year, i took a step leaping from Malaysia to Adelaide, next year, it will be melbourne, year after that.. hmm.. hmm.. year.. after that.. hmm any fortune teller out there?

This entry is rather ambiguous, since i myself dont really know why i wanna put all these on.. hmm.. just random thougths, impulse and intuition.. and as a bold reminder to the world that... YES.. my BIRTHDAY is coming soon.. Soon.. SOON... SOOOOOOONNNNNN....

*hint hint again again

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